" When all you can see in everyones eyes is despair. It's easy to give up hope." with a hollow sigh he rolled onto his back in the grass, staring at the stars. "when you know theres no going back, no going forward. I give up. I gave way. I'm letting go. I relinquish, renounce and resign. I surrender. I yield. I'll cut out, I concede. My future is an desolate unavailing end."
I chickened out. I laughed. " did someone let you near the dictionary again?"
"thesaurus." he muttered. Couldn't look at him. He was crying. Silent tears trickling down his face. anything I say now would only make things worse, point out just how much I don't understand. how hopeless his situation is.
"Hope," I whisper. "Aspiration, Anticipation, Belief confidence and endurance. Expectation and faith"
We lay on that grass for an hour then went home.
The next day I left to visit my mother while he slept, I was gone two days. His mother met me at the door when I arrived back, and I knew what had happened.
"This morning," she cried. " he left you this."
She handed me a sealed envelope. As we lowered his coffin into the ground I clutched the letter.
For years to come I would Find comfort in his words.
Love; Affection and amour. Attach cherish delight. Fondness, friendship and devotion. Respect, worship and yearn.
Future; Destiny, eternity and Fate. The morrow, the offing. The world without end.
Until death do us part